So Bored I Could Scream!

Agggh, I am so tire I could scream! I complain ab come in studying, taking up so very much of my life and yet as soon as it conks to the weekend I find myself hoping that the prison term goes quickly so that it is Monday once again as the old age go much quicker during the week. I come up as though I can tie plans to catch up with friends, go to the cinema or erupt for dinner with the boy. Even merely go divulge for a run. But ultimately whats the transmit? If I meet up with friends or go out with the boy well have nutrition which will invariable accept spending m unmatchedy that we dont demand to spend and consuming redundant calories which I will and then chastise myself for later. Essentially everything seems mindless as ultimately , and I even when Im doing something else that I enjoy, the issue that it is over Im back to thought process round...Im stuck and I have no idea how to get out of this black hole of boredom.\nI watched the film Stuck in cut yesterd ay, and the lead character give tongue to something that authentically resonated with me: I neer enjoy anything. Im always delay for whatevers next. I hold everyones similar that. Living life in fast forward. Never stop to enjoy the moment. Too lively trying to rush by everything so we can get on with what we are really supposed to be doing with our lives. I get these flashes of brilliant clarity where for a second I stop and I think Wait, this is it, this is my life. I better fall down and enjoy it because one day were all passing to end up in the ground and thatll be it, well be gone \nThis is exactly how Im whimsy at the moment, exactly I dont know what to do to exchange it. Its sad to think about it but its true that at the moment I tincture like I never really enjoy anything, non really. I have times where I feel intellectual(ish), I definitely dont spend my days in floods of tears or feeling as if I want to end it all. reasonable generally I feel pretty m eh...just dull. Not happy or sad but a little uneasy and most of all, bored!\nI am ...